Lessons I've learned along the way #6.
Allow yourself to feel everything. Allow yourself to feel nothing.
You cannot predict the range of emotions that you will go through in times like this.
Giving yourself permission to feel whatever comes along will free you from the added emotion of guilt, if & when you feel like:
Sobbing, because you found out your dad's hair was starting to fall out...
Laughing, because you made your sister pee her pants. Again...
Punching someone in the throat, because they are smoking in front of you...
Crying, because someone helped your family with an unexpected blessing...
Panicking, because you don't know how to connect the oxygen hoses properly...
Smiling, because you beat your dad in a game of darts... OK, fine. Gloating big time, because you beat your dad in a game of darts...
Your emotions are going to be all over the map depending on the situation, the mood, the song that plays, the hormones that rage, the wind that blows.
Expect them. And express them (without throat punching).
Emotions are part of the journey.
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And then sometimes they are not.
Numbness may be one of God's greatest gifts during trials.
It's as if He says "Ya know... you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders, so I'm going to just take this load off of you for a while, and let you just be."
And just being is OK, too.
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Allow yourself to feel everything. Allow yourself to feel nothing.
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